Wednesday, 28 October 2015

I knew You : Prelude

It's happened around 2009 back then. He said,
"I think we should break up. We better this way." 

When I saw his message pop up on My facebook notification that time, I replied instanly, 
"Why? Tell me the reasons." 

I tried to act cool as I could, I tries to hold back my emotions.

He replied an hour later,

"I feel lonely with you. You were never give that much attention to me. Eventough we're far away you could video call everyday but you didn't. You are so ignorant. And I think I've found someone better for me. She is so affectionate. So we should break up." 

I read his reply and feel like I've been fooled. I am only a First grader high school that time. Well, he's not the first person who said he liked me but, he's officialy my first boyfriend eventough I've never met him. We met on facebook because we had the same interest on anime (japanesse cartoon) so we got close and he confessed. Yes. It's like they said dating online with a person you've never met. I am in Indonesia and he was in Malaysia. And at that time I still don't understand dating at all. Wheter what I should do or what should I said. And I don't even know how to video call him. I only use facebook at that time. 
It's 10 pm and my activity that day has been finished so I can go back to my room and I replied him, 
"Okay. I don't know what to say anymore." 

Then, I closed my browser page, lock my phone off then go to bed. 
"So It was what they called breaking up." 
I sulk in my bed and went to dreamland right away. 

I never told anyone about him but every one know it when they see my relationship status on facebook. I feel okay after that night. I did not feel any pain or sadness at all. We dated only few months anyway.
But few days later When I opened his facebook profile just because I want to know how he was doing. And he already has a new girlfriend. I've seen his wall and they write wall to wall everyday with a lot of cute emoticons, and the girlfriend said she would video call him tonight and all. So this is the type of girl that he wants me to be. Suddenly I think this is what they said "cheating". So he cheated with her behind because it's imposibble they already this close if the just know each other recently. 
Okay. I gave up. 
I wont give a damn if there's someone like him confessed anymore. I want something real not just cyber lover. I want things like these real. 

That's what I tought. 
I never expected  that I will experienced what I said in real. 
This only the begining. Before I met my soulmate painfully. 

Because of this person I learnt what love is and how it will make you happy as id you'll fly into the sky and then make you sad and feel like crumble down into the deepest dark hole easily. 
This person can turns my inside upside down easily. 

Why Can I have another? Why it has to be him? 

Stay tuned for the next chapter! ^^


Sunday, 11 October 2015